It is August 1st and a lot has changed since my last blog entry. I am now living in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. After much prayer, fasting, and counsel from 5 brothers and sisters in the Faith, I made the decision. I was blessed with a 1 way ticket to Philly for the day of July 21st. My plane left Dallas around 9a and landed in Philly a few hours later. I am fortunate to be here although it is not as easy a transition as I thought it’d be. I am not complaining (atleast NOW I’m not); it’s just slightly difficult. I came with 2 suitcases and a duffle bag… clothes, personal items, CDs, books, study materials (paper, pens, highlighters, etc.), and a few other things. My car is still in Dallas, along with the majority of my things. I’d like to fly back soon, load up my car with my computer, books, clothes, shoes, and such, and take the 24 hour drive to Philly. I have 2 brothers in Christ that volunteered to fly down to Dallas from Baltimore and drive my car back. That’s a blessing. I pray that they are able to do it. I definitely need my car here. SEPTA is cool and all, but there are some areas in which I do not feel comfortable walking by myself. So… I’m really praying that they will be able to do it because I don’t have the $700 to do that right now. So, yea… a sis is definitely praying about that, that it may all come together by His grace.
Since I have been here, I’ve been through a lot of self examination – motives, thoughts, actions, words, deeds, you name it. I’ve been convicted of habits and thought patterns daily. I have seen myself in this mirror of sorts and the reflection is quite ugly. I have so many things that need to be worked on that I never thought were there. Areas that I thought were strong are actually pretty feeble. My passion is not as strong as I thought it to be, along with various other things. Self examination is PAINFUL, yet sweet. For the first time in my life, my pastor knows who I am. I am at a church where I am excited to serve… literally can’t wait! I miss Dallas SO much… I miss my family, but this whole move and process is definitely maturing me as a believer in Christ Jesus and as a person.
I’m surrounded by Godly sisters such as Jenny, Tiff, and Jalaylia… Godly brothers such as Mac, Shai, and Jordan. It’s a blessing. In the week that I have been here, I have received sound advice from them all, whether by their word or by their action.
I am just really thankful to be here. I miss my family like crazy. I don’t have all of my things. I don’t have my car. I am in a new city and am learning my way around very slowly. I am learning much about myself. I am very far away from home… yet in all of these things, by the grace of God, I am determined to push through… and as I sit here with Sara Groves’ beautiful song, “He’s Always Been Faithful”, on repeat, I desire to just place everything in Him… This is most definitely a time when I lean on my Dad and trust Him through it all. He is the source of my encouragement and joy and is most definitely sovereign. I pray that He will help me remember and meditate on the Truths that I know about Him as I push through this time in my life.
I can’t remember a trial or a pain
He did not recycle to bring me gain
I can’t remember one single regret
Iin serving God only and trusting His hand…
When it comes to the Father, man, I am SO needy… like a little kid. I need Abba to make everything right according to His Will. As I said earlier, this whole time has been bittersweet, but I believe that I am right where He wants me… physical location and in this state of dependence. The Scripture rings true!
… for apart from me you can do nothing
John 15:5 ESV
I pray that He will help me learn the city, provide a way for me to have my car and computer and the rest of my things, and that He would give me a CONTINUALLY willing heart and mind to serve as much as possible at my new church home – Epiphany.
Philly is most definitely a mission field. The need for a church plant like Epiphany is great. I plan to get involved with the street evangelism team so that I can, like Everyday Process urges, make it my business to give them the Gospel.
Grace and peace.
P.S. Would you labor with Epiphany in prayer ? Check out the August prayer committment and requests here.