Without going into TOO much detail… I have been going through some intense, just crazy spiritual warfare lately. I’m talking about the kind that makes you wake up, sit straight up in your bed, and pray HARD til it subsides… the kind that makes you lose sleep and keeps your mind messed up for days.
I hate this and I hate myself for being susceptible to it. I don’t know how some people are so strong and so able to withstand these attacks so well. It’s killing me. I’m so bothered, so mad, so… irritated and frustrated about this whole thing.
Please intercede on my behalf. I so need the prayers of the saints.
Last night, I was drifting off to sleep and heard something (wasn’t audible) that literally scared me fully awake. I was no longer sleepy. I opened my Bible and pleaded and prayed and was afraid to go back to sleep. I was scared to close my eyes. I don’t know what’s been up with me lately, but this has NEVER happened.
I really need prayer and I want myself back.
Am I going crazy ? Sometimes I feel like I am… Am I the only one who’s gone through this ? Anybody able to shed some light ?
I look forward to the moment when I can look back and see how the Lord has brought me through this, but for now ? It seems no end is in sight.